Mary says…
I was exhausted the day after dealing with back-to-back crises all weekend, one on the national level and one in my own home where we lost power for 18 hours thanks to a violent storm that same night.
It was not that big of a deal that we lost power. We had a generator and were safe, albeit a little hot. And the news of the assassination attempt on that former president was wild but also every news event feels wild the past few years. So I said out loud to my husband after the kids were finally asleep Monday night, “I don’t know why I'm so tired, it wasn't that big of a deal, but it felt like we were back in 2020 this weekend. Back in survival mode.”
And the minute the words came out it was clear. It was the trauma that was bubbling back up from what I have been through personally and as a member of the collective throughout the past few years.
Some tears came and the abrupt realization not only helped me acknowledge what I was feeling, but to release it. Isn’t it crazy that we can just do that? To be able to say yes, this hurts, but now that I understand it I can move forward because I have felt this before and I have remembered the path out of this dark cave.
As a Scorpio moon, I am no stranger to survival mode. Give me the minimum and I will not only make it work, but thrive. I can do so much within the confines of so little. But what I have learned the past few years, thanks in large part to astrology, is that it does not need to be this way. It does not need to be hard. I do not have to walk on my knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting (thank you, Mary Oliver). It can just be easy if I choose it to be. If I create a way for it to be easy.
Now, this is not to dismiss the very real peril and difficulty that lies before us. It is to say that a shift in perspective can go a long way. As much as it feels hopeless or out of our control at the moment, we have to remember we can literally createthe world we want. It is so magically mundane and so mundanely magical. It really is that simple. And it is up to all of us to decide we want something different and to make it happen.
And no, I’m not talking about just voting. It’s become abundantly clear that is not enough.
I am talking about creation, people.
Giving form to something new. Bringing things into existence. The act of taking two completely separate ideas and making a third completely unique one.
Sometimes creation happens in a flurry of activity or a magical gnosis that plops completely formed into your brain. And sometimes it happens slowly through concrete baby steps, stacking on top of themselves into an exponentially effective final product. The process is irrelevant so long as you do it.
But we cannot create when we are preoccupied by our fear. We can acknowledge the fear and then do it anyway. But we can’t create when we are sitting in it and letting it overtake us.
Where should we look for hope, then? The answer, for me, is always Jupiter. And even though it’s in detriment in Gemini for the next 10 months or so, it’s still Jupiter, baby. It may mean our hope is scattered or fleeting or uncommitted or spread thinly to many things, but there is still hope and we can still find a silver lining there. Especially in our thoughts and ideas.
Being both mutable and ruled by Mercury, Gemini is a place where we can hold an enormous amount of conflicting and paradoxical thinking. Throw Jupiter in the mix and we’ve got a capacity for this that we haven’t seen since 2013 (literally the last time Jupiter was here).
How can we broaden our horizons to include truths and their opposites, and more importantly, how can we use these expanded ways of thinking to create new possibilities for our existence?
This is what I am thinking about today. And I hope it inspires you to join me.